So tell me how does it feel, how does it feel to be like you?

Never assume. Never expect. Just hope for the best, because surprises are better than disappointments.

I have never been so disappointed. I have felt a lot of downfalls in the past fifteen years, but never this way. Being disappointed by the person  you trust the most, the person you look up to, and the person you thought will never hurt you is very painful. The kind of pain that makes your chest hurt in the most unfathomable way. The kind of pain that fills your gut with feelings you can't describe. And what's worse is that you can't talk about it with anyone because you're afraid people will judge you. You're afraid that people will think you're overreacting when you know you're not. 

I'm fucking fifteen-years-old, these feelings aren't real. I am fucking fifteen-years-old, I'll feel greater pain in the future, greater disappointments. But I'm fucking fifteen-years-old and I'm oblivious as fuck. And I never listen. 

Who the hell am I kidding? I think I am suffering from a terminal case of heart break.