I'm finally graduating high school. I don't know if I should be relieved or scared, because at this point, all I could think about is who I'm going to be in college.

Will I be in control of my change? Will I even notice my changes? 

I don't want people in my past to see me differently after a few months or years, and if they will, I want them to see me differently in a good way, of course. But how? Should I let go of myself in the real world? Should I keep to myself and stay on the safe side like I did in High school? Nothing's wrong with taking risks...but there's nothing wrong with being safe, either. 

I have no idea...where...I'm....going....Fuck.