Looking For My Great Perhaps

So finally, after 2 years of impatiently waiting, I've finally read Looking For Alaska. I'm not really good at reviewing books because I always go out of topic, but I'll say this:
Looking For Alaska is a very, very good read. It made me stay up very late just thinking about it. I love Miles's character, he reminds me so much of Holden Caulfield, now I know why the book was reviewed as "This Spirit of Holden Caulfield lives on". I completely agree. Alaska might be one of the most interesting characters I have ever met. I have seen a lot of myself in her in some points. She is very intriguing, I just hoped that I've seen more of her in the book, I crave for so much more of Alaska Young.
What hit me the most was Miles's desperate need to find the Great Perhaps, because that's what I've been trying to do for the past few years. What is my Great Perhaps? Where is it? Where will I find it? Knowing the fact that I do not exactly know what my Great Perhaps is makes me want it more. It frustrates and interests me everyday. I want to know what my purpose is in life but if I know, wouldn't I strive hard to get it? Wouldn't I make so many sacrifices just to reach and find my Great Perhaps? Wouldn't I change my whole being just to grasp what I have been craving for years? So, I guess it's better to not exactly know what my life is facing, because it's better to try every road and twists and turns in life, rather than just taking the straight path to my goal. I am sure every right and wrong move I make leads me to my Great Perhaps, it just takes a little bit of time. I am not terrified, I am honestly very excited.
So thank you, John Green for making me wonder.

I hope I made sense.

Oh and here's a list of things that I would want to do someday, and some things that aren't really necessary but fun things to do. I found this on Tumblr: