This is just one of the many times when I'm so inspired to write but I have nothing to write about. 

So here is something I wrote without stopping or even thinking. (I should do this more often)

I'm stuck. I don't know where to go, I don't even know where to start. I'm trying to become who I want to be, but the problem is, I have no idea who, or what. So I'm trying to wing everything I do now that I'm in college, since college is the perfect time to find yourself, after all. But I'm scared. What if I keep on trying and trying new things until I end up in the wrong place? What if there's no turning back from this point? I'm scared to go on, I'm scared because I don't even know where I am and who I am right now. All I know is that I'm stuck and fucked up. I want to let go of these feelings in my gut but how will I when I don't even know what these feelings are? I feel so empty inside and so unexposed to the people and things and the infinite knowledge around me, I have no idea where to start. I want to change but I have no idea what to change in me. I'm so fucking terrified of myself, I don't even fucking know who I am right now and what I'm doing all I know is that I'm doing what I'm told to do and I'm doing what I know is right but I know that I'm not doing anything for me and it's fucking scary and I'm fucking terrified. I want to pause and reflect but I don't even have fucking time for myself. It's horrible and I hate it I hate it I hate it. I want to go back to wherever felt like my home or wherever I felt like I truly knew myself.